Holy Spirited

My beloved friend. There are many reasons why someone might appear to be angry, or to respond in a way that shows heightened aggression.

None of these ways are to do with YOU.

The light released when someone ‘bursts’ like this is a powerful motivator for many forces of this sphere, who need so desperately something cool to drink.

Imagine what it feels like to have an unquenchable thirst. You can only think about water and how to get some. You would crawl over hot broken glass to feel a drop of cold water on your lips!

This is not a demon I’m describing. It’s you, my dear, and there’s no judgement behind these words, for I love you with all my power, and in ways you cannot fathom.

But you are – like most pure and gracious souls living an earthly life – desperate for the light. You crave it. You miss it. You will do what it takes to get it.

I know you have an image of a demon sucking up the light you release. And this is not wholly incorrect.

You do spill light and it does attract forces who are looking for light.

But they’re not ‘stoking’ you. They’re not prodding and manipulating you for it. They don’t have that much strength.

You are a willing participant in giving your light away. I say this not to upset you, it’s just the truth.

It’s part of why you came to Earth – you wanted to direct your flow of light into situations, or to create situations for the light to shine.

Part of this is spilling a little, so know you’re doing nothing ‘wrong’ and you are loved for doing this work! Loved beyond any measure, although understand that we would ever measure anything we know to be ALL. What would be the point of that?

So yes, my beloved friend, you spill light when you rise to anger. And yes, some of that is taken up by others who thirst. 

And this can have a beneficial effect on those discarnates who are also learning – learning all the time – who they are.

But let me talk about YOU – which you understand is NOT the whole you but which you recognise as being the ‘one’ you can actually control.

When, in the seconds and milliseconds before you make the choice for less, you first get the impulse that this is a situation in which it would be beneficial to feel anger – what do you think is happening?

I can tell you that your first, underlying experience of YOU, which is still a choice, is totally wide of the mark. 

You are NOT what you think you are. 

You think you are a person for whom anger is a valid response, and therefore anger is one of the tools at your disposal.

I just gave you the image of having a job to do and having tools to pick from. Let’s say the job was to cut some wood. 

There are several tools you could choose. Some kind of saw would probably be your choice. You’d choose that based on your experience of what best cuts wood, whether or not you’d ever cut a piece of wood in your life.

You wouldn’t use, if asked to cut a piece of wood, a microwave. 

That would be crazy. It’s not even on the list of potential tools you’d choose from. It’s the wrong tool for the job and you know that.

But if the job was to heat some food, you'd never choose a saw. 

So a saw and a microwave are both tools which are perfectly suited to certain tasks, and perfectly weird considerations for others.

What’s the job you’re here to do? What’s the task?

When you’re here to love, the tools you need are patience, compassion, insight, forgiveness. These are the tools of the heart. 

Anger is a microwave. It doesn’t belong in your love toolbox. So why do you try?

Either you’re misled about the job you’re here to do, or you’re misled about what anger can do. 

But you choose anger because, as much as you don’t want to believe this, anger feels like it’s the right tool to you, because you think your job is to be RIGHT, and you think anger makes you LOOK and FEEL right.

When you release anger, you feel a jolt of what we might call righteous fire. 

It feels good, at first, if you base feeling good on that little bright spark and warm feeling you get right at the start of a fire.

It’s new, it’s exciting for a moment – stay in it too long though, and it’ll become uncomfortable and you’ll start to hurt. 

You chase the spark, you’ll burn your house down.

Come back later. We’ll talk more. I love you.