Holy Spirited

Consider how many times you have asked to speak to me.

Consider how many times when you’ve asked, you’ve not listened.

It is not through lack of will to hear, but through an inability at your current level of stress, to close down your outer thoughts and go deep enough inside to hear my quiet voice, which will never shout up to you, but will stay steadfast and respectful to your wishes. 

Your outer wishes have not always been your inner wishes, dear friend.

It is all well and good to say you want this, that or the other, but to actually take it, to accept it, means some changes in who you are and how you operate.

Driving a car is not the same as driving a fork lift truck. You need additional knowledge. You need to handle it differently. You might need a training certificate. 

Well, we don’t give out certificates for the ability to speak to us, but we do need you to approach the task a bit differently than you approach your everyday life.

You have a consciousness that helps you through the day. It filters out unhelpful things...

At this point I stop writing because my husband interrupts me for something.

[Me, thinking] Please come back. I’m sorry about that, I got upset because Joseph stopped the flow of my thoughts. 

But think about that. Why did you get upset?

Was it because you believed I would be ‘gone’ if we didn’t keep up a constant conversation?

I am always here, but you cannot always hear me. Your task is to listen to me even while under distraction.

You live a life of few distractions, actually. You live a quiet life on the whole, where you do not have to do many things other than work.

Joseph allows you a life where we are not perpetually bothered by the needs of others. This is a tremendous gift, and I want you to share it more widely, but do not become concerned at tiny interruptions when you have created a life free of most of the bigger ones. 

Now, where were we? Read back and pick me back up again where we left off. 

You have a consciousness that helps you through the day. Underneath this, there is a quieter space where you can hear a pin drop.

That pin is my voice, soft and ancient, so familiar to you that you often miss it, or dismiss it.

But like a low humming breeze, I’m here. In the depths of you, I wait and sing a soft slow song and bide my ‘time’ where in fact, there is no ‘time’ to lose. 

The deeper consciousness that is my realm, opens up when you let go of the daily vibration at which you 'get things done'.

My space is not about getting things done, but undone.

It is the space of paring back, stripping away the layers of ‘musts’ and ‘shoulds’ and ‘can dos’ and just being. Being love, being peace, being reality.

Do not fret that you will miss me, or be unable to access me. That will never happen. I am an unremovable part of the real you. I AM the real you. And I will never leave you.

Let’s talk every day. I have much to share. 

“Can you share anything now?”

There was a man who removed all his clothes and said "Look how frail I am. You can see my sinews and my bones sticking out and my pale, wrinkled skin. You can tell how old I am. I need looking after." 

And the nurse maid with him said "I have never seen anyone stronger or more beautiful." 

And the man said "You are mistaken. I’m half dead. My skin is hanging off my bones." The nurse said "But look at your muscles, which have been hewn throwing about big rocks, and your skin, which has been hardened under the sun. You will live a hundred years yet!"

But the man couldn’t see it, and so he grew weaker and weaker, in his firm belief that it was a matter of time before he would grow so old and tired that his frail body would fail and he would fall into his eternal resting place among the soil and the twigs and the insects. 

And so he died, this young strong man, who saw only his weakness. And she cried, his nurse maid, who knew the man had all his life ahead of him and many years of good work ahead. 

Who was right? Both of them. You are what you think you are. 

If you want to be someone who speaks to your higher being day after day, and grows wise listening to my words and heeding my lessons, you will be.

If you think you’re someone who renews in strength and grows more beautiful and lives every day of your life in perfect health, you can be. 

You need to know how, and it’s counterintuitive to what you might have been told. But if you follow me and check in your heart that I have your best interests right there, together we can change your world, and then the world of those around you, and then the world entire.

I love you and will never leave you.